Diary of Zamiel - Part 1

Day #2
Why people refuse to assume they want power?
Money is power... Emotional stability is power... People caring about you is power...
But...
Why refuse this?
It's beautiful to say... Even to see... When somenone give up and finally say "I want power!"
Something inside me want it... but the whole... All of them... are acting together for only one thing...
All my souls are fighting for only one thing now...
Redemption.
Because... Well... I can't see anything anymore and I feel like drowning inside myself...
I want power
Nothing else matters
NOTHING ELSE
I NEED MORE POWER
...
I'm just tired of struggling for something I don't know if exists.
...
I know it exists
But I can't believe it.
Can you understand it?
I know but I don't believe.
...
I need to be strong
Because... 
...
...
Because... I need?